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So, I'm totally in a funk.  I can't seem to do everything I know I need to do and unfortunately, my husband is getting the raw end of the deal.  I'm exhausted.  I'm trying to be the best employee I can be, the best mother and the best wife.  In addition, I'm leading worship for my church, taking on more responsibility with committees and trying to keep up with friends.

I am in charge of the finances, most of the housework and all activities involving Madison.

At the end of the day, I'm exhausted.  My job requires me to be on-call 24/7 so even if I get to bed at a decent hour, I get phone calls all hours of the night.

My husband isn't quite as "driven" as I am so I get VERY frustrated with his lack of desire to help with household things and when he says things like "oh, your going to get motivated today and rack the leaves?" set me off.  My reaction to him is to shut down and stop talking to him.  This isn't right.

I am trying SO hard to listen to the Lord and seek His direction and be the Godly wife I know I'm supposed to be.  I just can't seem to get it.  I fail every time.

God, please help me.