Just thoughts.....

I work with adults with disabilities and my job is incredibly stressful. It's definitely a "big girl" job because I have people's lives in my hands. I am responsible for their health care management, finances and their daily staff. I am responsible for making sure they get food stamps, social security benefits and funding through the state of ohio.

What I find most frustrating about this job- over the staff call offs at 4am or the staff who just doesn't show up and I have to go last minute to cover a shift- is the "all about me" viewpoint that people have in this world. I don't want to limit it to people with disabilities, although this is what I see everyday, because I know most people in this world are incredibly selfish. I just don't think I realized the extent of it until I started working in this field.

I have clients who don't work but feel that their disability check is their earned money. The same with food stamp benefits- they don't work or contribute to our financial society at all but they feel entitled to these benefits.

My family and I are uninsured. Neither of our jobs offer health insurance and we make too much to qualify for medicaid- even though my daughter is disabled. To pay for our health insurance independently is costly but its the only route we are able to go at this time.
Why do people who don't work but are disabled deserve better health care than I do? I'm not asking for a hand out by any means. My taxes however, are paying for the people I work with to see the best doctors available in central ohio. Why shouldn't I have access to those doctors as well?
I have to decide how sick we are in order to determine if I go to the doctor. Then it becomes a payment situation so I can pay off whatever we had done.

While I'm not sure that universal health care is completely the answer for our country, a fair system needs to be created.

While I can't solve the worlds selfishness with my blog- I can raise my disabled daughter to understand that we are here on earth to serve others, not ourselves and that hard work is still valued and necessary, even though she's disabled. Her disability doesn't disqualify her from working in a "normal" job. She can be successful and not need government benefits in order to survive.

How do I begin teaching the people I work with that their world doesn't end at their wheelchair, or cane or autistic mind?
Is this even my job?
Should I surrender my thoughts and chalk them up to "the way things are" and let it go?